April 29, 2012

if that so, then you must be the one.

after having a great saturday night with friends, and had a nice friday with best friends. How sad to know the fact, today i have to do all of my assignments 'till death, and i'm still awake now. I need a company..


"God, let her let go all of her sadness and disappointment. You have blessed a partner for her, who love her, who scared about You and obey Your orders."
and without conscious, i started to cry. And for the whole time, i wished i could hug you.

here's to my loved ones. here's the truth of everything i've thinking of.

People comes and goes. When someone came into my life, i know i just could learn from them or stuck with them forever. And for any possibility that we can't handle, i should prepare myself for the worst, like there's no other 'tomorrow'. I learn to fall, and i learn to be hurt. I learn that i shouldn't put to high expectation on someone that can't promise you to stay forever in your life. But here i am, take a risk one more time. Call me crazy, but i hope you're the one.
You're the song that i always sing. You're the hope that i always wish. You're the light when i'm lost in the dark, and the dark instead when i'm tired with the light. I feel like you're my best friend now -someone who i can talk about everything, and to share love. You're the lullaby that echoing in my head every time i'm going to sleep. Call me old fashioned, i'll give every love that i have to make you happy, nobody else.
I always hope i can be with you someday. One day, when i walk down the aisle, you're the one who wait for me at the end. That's why i want to be with you as much as i can, as often as we can. Sometimes i want to take time just for two of us, but then i realize that the point is, there's you. Call me selfish, but when it's about you, my heart can't deny.
Some people will laugh if i tell them this -that i love you so much and never let you go, because they know, nobody can predict what happen next. Some people will feel sorry for me, to be a girl with too high dream and when i fall, i will fall hard to hell. But somehow, you made me feel this way. I'd ever felt this, and i hope if anything goes wrong, i will stand up and not looking back, so you and i, will both happy. Just if anything goes wrong. If not, then it's a real blessing for me from God, to give me a really lovable partner in my life. Call me far-fetched, but i really hope nothing goes wrong.

People tell me that you're right for me. Some of them give no comment. But i always know that the one who able and allowed to decide is myself, so i give you 10 from 1 to 10, to have my heart away. Just promise me, to share your world to me, and i'll share mine. complement each other, care and love.
this is my honor to have you, and your honor to know how i am feeling. i love you. xoxo.

April 25, 2012

cheesy sauce!

I've been driving by myself lately. Yes, people, i don't used to drive myself because my parents don't let me. I've been trying to ask them for let me drive myself, for a year. And past months, i often try to drive myself when i was with my driver, so he could teach me. And today, i went to college with my friends. It should be the same feeling when i was with my driver, but i don't know, i was just so nervous! Sweating a lot, like seriously, but the weather was very hot indeed. But yea luckily, i went to college and drove home safely. I hope my mom will let me drive haha. I know it'll be so tiring, because my college is so far from home, but i would rather drive by myself than i have to look for a ride to and fro. just feel shame, sometimes.


If somebody asks me to cook something, you should know that i'm surely gonna cook pasta! Actually i'm not good at cooking, but i', good at eating, tho. But i thought i should be able to cook pasta because it's my passion! Pasta is the most delicious food after Nasi Padang, seriously! So far, i could only cook two kinds of pasta, Bolognese and Carbonara, because those two are the most favorite in Indonesia, i think. And from what i'd ate in cafe or restaurant, the sauce isn't too far from those two. But i think i would learn another too, someday.

So, i cooked a pasta for my dinner this noon :) I don't know what i should called it, just named it Cheesie Smoked Beef Spagetthi a la Chef Emma.. or without a la Chef Emma.

I loooove creamy one than sour tomato sauce. So i would love if i have to cook some cheesy pasta. Delicious or not? I would say it is delicious because i'm the one who cook it, haha. Taste is subjective, right? I just love the smoked beef, because i tried to buy the cheap one and i think it will taste not so good, but it's not. Hehe.


My boy went to Jakarta yesterday with his friends to join a INACRAFT 2012 exhibition in JCC for his business, POSH, and some UC's student also join this exhibition. He'll come back home on Monday, and i already miss him, haha! Ya but he'd ever went holiday for 2 weeks, so i think this one week is okay. I hope so. Just missing the fussy tubby one. Wish you all the best there!

been addicted to Payphone by Maroon 5 ft. Wiz Khalifa! Maroon 5 always create good songs. And Adam Levine, why you have to be so hot, lol.


other song on my playlist :

Safe and Sound (ost. Hunger Games) -Taylor Swift ft The Civil Wars

Call Me Maybe -Carly Rae Jepsen

Born to Die -Lana Del Rey

Live my Life -Far East Movement ft. Justin Bieber

Can't Say No -Conor Maynard

Dance Again -Jennifer Lopez ft. Pitbull

April 20, 2012

Our photo after Commercial Photo shoots for VCD's assignment. look at my face, turning red. Yes, lots of freckles cause of facial. The doctor said my face will peel a little bit, so it turns to a new clean skin. I hope so, peel it quickly, please.

Next month is finally Final Exam and, duh, i feel so lazy! A lot of assignments await but i can't even move from bed or turn off the TV. If i could, then it'll end up browsing or eating. Too lazy to do my assignments.. But however, i wish it will end soon. This semester, i feel so BORED. Ya i don't know why, it's just like i'm not really into it anymore, or the lectures are just not really exciting. I always feel so lazy, every morning after i open my eyes. The college is so far away and i have to go there and just sit there and listen the lecturer talk this talk that, give more assignments, and go home. Sometimes i just feel bored and need a real holiday. Bali will be great. i think it's already hot season again, which is REALLY hot here, the sun seems like become closer to earth. At this time, beach will be a very nice pleasure.

Well, some people get bored with Bali, because too often to go there. I'm not. Never get bored with beach. Swimming, tattoos, nail arts, markets! Don't know why but miss them so much, lol.
Okay, back to reality. So many assignments to get done.

and oh, i feel so lavish. If only taking money is like taking water from the sea...

April 16, 2012

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain

I know Rainbow cake has been famous nowadays.

As i know, this cake is rare in Surabaya. I think Dapur Cokelat and Harvest sell it, but some of my friends said that Rainbow cake which they sell isn't too good. Well, i'm curious enough to eat this, but cancelled my desire because they said it isn't delicious. So, one day, my friend, ce Angie, went to her hometown, Singapore, and updated about Rainbow cake which she had been waiting for because it's so delicious. Haha, i'm curious, so i asked her whether it's really delicious or not, and she said it is, she would bring me some when she go back to Surabaya. Oh yay, she really brought it for me!

She gave this today. Looks so nice, eh? Colorful ;) *happy* Evidently, it tastes delicious. Maybe it has an ordinary cake with rainbow color, but the chocolate is delizioso! She said, the bakery is in the alley, if you're a tourist, it's hard enough to find. Maybe my aunt knows it and i can persuade my mom to go there when i go to Singapore again, someday! :P Thank you, Ce Angie!


It's Lana Del Rey, guys. As you know, she's a new artist but her songs were booming so fast because she has an unique voice. Well, to be honest, i'm not really like her songs. At the same time, she has typical voice that everyone gonna remember her fast, but i don't really like her voice, don't know why! But for her music videos, Born to Die and Blue Jeans, omg those are very cool videos!

She has a gorgeous hair with sexy lips, and she has a style that really quirky but awesome. I think that roses-headband is getting more booming because of her (maybe?). And the setting of Born to Die video is awesome! I always see houses like what they used in her video, that's why i love Europe. Old big house, like a castle, with gold carvings, like a great churches in Europe. But i don't want to life in house like that, haha. Scary. Just want to visit it.
In Blue Jeans, the crocodiles attracted my attention. Then i remember she also used tigers in Born to Die. That's quirky, right? but awesome instead. But the first scene of Blue Jeans is quite annoying, like Video Games. I don't like Video Games music video. Just don't get it. But still, she's a gorgeous woman. Love her looks.
"Don't make me sad, don't make me cry, Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough. I don't know why, Keep making me laugh, let's go get high, the road is long, we carry on. Try to have fun in the meantime, come and take a walk on the wild side, Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain.You like your girls insane, choose your last words, this is the last time, 'cause you and I, we were born to die."

April 15, 2012

those pretty hair...

Yesterday i watched Battleship while me and my fluffy boss dating. Once again, let me write some about this movie, although i'm not a movie critic.

If you like tense movie, action movie or manly movie, like robots or other, this movie is amazing, since i know making animation really good really real like this movie is really-very-extra-extremely-terribly-too hard, i have to say, this movie is really-very-extra-extremely-terribly-too good. Yea, yea i know, they are the one who made Transformer too. That's why this movie is so Transformer. Not the story, but the ship, very Transformer. When the movie was almost end, i was getting little bored because it was climax from start to end. But they served light humor that made me still wanted to watch this. After all, epic movie. And Rihanna looks so damn badass. Love it.

Actually i keep thinking why they describe the aliens or other-space-people look like a lizard. I mean, their eyes. How if they are really exist, but not extremely come to earth like that?

"My dad said they'd come. He said we ain't alone. He said one day we'll find them. Or they'll find us. But when that day comes, i wish i have already died."

So, i've been stalking (not stalking actually, that's scary) these two person lately.

or i think her real name is Wendy. She is from Singapore.
I found her first time from Youtube. She posted some videos about make up tutorial, from zero to hero. I watched it while i searched for The Power of Make Up. Call me weird, but i actually keep watching that show or someone pretty (yeah all of them is PRETTY. I won't say they're ugly because every girl in this world born to be pretty) who transforming to a really gorgeous girl after she wears make up. It's such a shame when the host says something, which i don't really know, but it seems like mocking her. I mean, whatever, she's born that way, how could you mock her like that. I used to mock some people like that too, especially in High school. Wearing make up to school seems taboo for me and some of my friends, instead we still in High School! But since now i'm a college student, if i see some girl wearing make up to college, i think it's normal. We're almost 20 now and make up is things we can have as a girl, it's like make an art to your face, ins tied of hiding your real face. Yea i'm not saying this because i like wearing make up too, but just tell what i thought. It's okay since your make up fit your age. If you're wearing a lot of make up that make you looks like an old lady or tacky one, ya.. just wipe that, okay.

Okay, back to XiaXue.

Honestly, when i watched that video, i was like, "WTF, she's so ugly before make up!!" (sorry, it's just my immature thoughts. don't say i'm a hypocrite!). Then she was transforming to a beautiful lady and i was like.. wow, make up does work. But then i found out why this girl is really famous. i dropped to her blog, and finally it's an amazing blog. She posted so many photos of herself (which maybe made some guys hate her because she's so hipster) but i think the photos are good. She wrote lots of article. Tho somehow there are some posts that i don't like (ex : Adele's post) but since it's her blog and she is free to write everything, i think she's quite funny. She's a typical of funny, loud, attractive and pretty girl. That's why i know why she's famous.
"Seriously love this little Singaporean girl. In her blog she speaks her mind and she doesn’t care what the f*ck any body says about her. Her wittiness and bluntness is just so refreshing, not a lot of famous bloggers do that nowadays."
-someone on tumblr.com
And omg, the most important thing is her hair. When i saw her photos for the first time.. "OMG is that a real hair or not." but after watching the videos of her dyed her hair, she successfully made me jealous to the max. Blonde, pink, and now purple, wtf is on her mind. But it's really cool. I always wanted to dye my hair with pastel color (call me weird, again), but since my bad hair loss and since i'm living at indonesia (which to dye hair with pastel color is, once again, taboo) they said it's weird. Tho she lives in other country, i think Singaporean are majority have black or brown hair. So i think it is a very brave one to choose that color, lol.

Anyway, she's cute and more cute that now she lose some weight. Really fit her body, look so tiny cute! haha. I always wanna see the real her so maybe someday when i go back to Singapore, i can see her in person somehow. Haha. I love her camera, anyway. I don't know it's because she photoshoped the photos or it's because the camera, or just because her hair and her room color, her photos got a sweet color.

P.S. her bunny, igloo, is so damn cute. DAMN CUTE.

The other one is Tricia Gosingtian.


I found her first time from Lookbook.nu. Among all Lookbook user, she's really pretty and skinny! Then when i opened her tumblr, she own very good photos, and i thought because she is a photographer. Very beautiful photographer. and fashion blogger. and model. Yes, she own a good camera (and very good lenses too, i think. don't really know about it) and i keep asking, i'm usually very very lazy to bring my DSLR. Mine is Canon 1000D and it's really light, compared with any DSLR cameras. But i'm still lazy to bring it because it's heavy enough to me and usually hurt my shoulder! My bag becomes really heavy. But she was… beautifully bring that big camera and own very good photos. Sometime i was like.. wew.. she must be really in love with photography, lol. And i love everything she wore. They are so fit in her! maybe because she is so slim :P and her shoes… make me jealous! But ohmyGod, she's really pretty, own a very good photos and good clothes!

Same like XiaXue, her hair is flawless. Blonde! Asian blonde. She's just like a living doll, real barbie. I want her to be my big sister, lol :D I wish i can have her body and her clothes!

I don't know how old are them but they always look younger from me, because they're cute. Haha. Love their blog.


I think my english is bad. YES YES I KNOW. I think i should take course again or whatever. i started to forget all the grammars in English. But i still love writing in English. Haha. Sorry, pity me.. Btw, i joined O-week Committee, Orientation Committee for new student next semester :) Me and my boy become Advisor! it seems like only yesterday that i became an advisor for 2011 students. Time flies so fast.
Advisor is somebody who helped trainee (new students) for orientation weeks, someone like tutor for them. Most of O-week Committee is Advisors. This year we have 90 (if i'm not wrong) Advisors. Somehow it's kinda sad that some of them think that advisor is really pity (?) division. Nobody said it! But their action is just like that. And FSD (Security Division) seems really cool. Ya,ya, i know. That division is everlasting cool since i was in High school. I also signed for FSD, actually, but they didn't accept me. I just try. I bet my High School OSIS' friends gonna laugh at me if i really become FSD. But, being Advisor is really fun :) And for me it's the important (not saying the most) one, because we are the one who really close to our group. Although we'll gonna be so busy with them but it's okay. I mean, it's like we have a place to sit, place to be together. Accompany them and share stories with them :) Since Senior High, i always be this kind of committee, it called Class Tutor when i was High School. Different with college which each 10 trainee have one Advisor, in High School, every 2 Class Tutors have about 40 new students or one class! Really fun. Seriously \(^.^)/ *some tacky emoticons*

I think i will take some course for this middle holiday too. But before think that, i should done all of my assignment, duh. Feel lazier, lazier and lazier. Help me...

April 13, 2012

about this movie : wrath of the titans


just watched this movie!
I'm not a movie critic, so i don't really know what i should see to decide whether this movie good or not, if i like the story or the other features, i'll say it's good. And for me this movie is good enough (even i know my friends said this movie isn't too good as the first one). Ya some part of the story is strange that make us think ,"hah, just like that?" but from effects and story, i got it and i like it. Yes, it isn't as good as the first one, unfortunately.
When i saw this movie, i really appreciate this kind of movie, adopted an old folk or history of greece, of God and Goddess, which make me think, wow the person who wrote this really learn hard! I became more reward this kind of movie because of History of Art class. I HYPER like this lecture, which i think the most exclaimed subject until now, plus the lecturer, Mr. Michael, is a really smart lecturer, smartest i think, haha. It was like i went back to the class and listening Mr. Michael explaining about greek's history, and others. Zeus, Poisedon, Hades, Andromeda.. And, Chimera? I used to think that creature was real, lol. Ya i used to be a nerd who like fiction, especially Harry Potter (i never read it, but i love the movie and the story behind it, and Daniel Radcliffe). So i went home and found this book :

This book is like my treasure when i was in Junior High School. I used to love this book so much because it brings you the condition if this book is Harry's and makes you jump in to Hogwarts. Yea, that's why i love Fiction.

Some of funny handwriting from Ron, Harry and Hermoine. Funny book.

A draw of the fantastic beasts. After read this, i used to search the beasts one by one on the internet and believed they were all real. Like, literally, real. Now i feel odd!
And finally, i bought this nail stickers.

I always wanted to try this since i saw the tutorial on Youtube. I don't really know what it called, Nail stickers, Blixz or Winx? i don't know, but seems stunning. I tried to put it on my pinkie and ring finger's nail and FAIL. Not as easy as i thought. Hiks. I saw Lady Gaga ever wear this too, but for years ago. I'm so late. Actually, i want the silver or gold one, or leopard and zebra prints. But unfortunately, i can't find any good pattern, this one is the most tolerable one. Why they don't have it, why.

Ok i'll try it later.